I'll Keep Holding On..

Do you know that song? I think it was mid 80's or so? I loved it. All I can remember is a few words of the verse and a little of the chorus, but I can hum the entire melody. Love it.

Anyway. Today is the day I change the words to that chorus. I've been holding on to something for far too long. Something that God has been pressing into me for quite awhile. I have prayed, cried, prayed, sought counsel and been silent.

And I have heard God. I know exactly what I am to do.

Sounds like it should be easy right? Wrong. It's going to be the hardest thing I have ever done. EVER. But partial obedience is disobedience, so there really is no other option than to just do what He has told me to do. (Sidenote, If I had done what He said a year ago, I would not be in this situation.)

So tonight, I stop holding on. I will share what God has put on my heart, totally unsure of what is going to happen. I may be completely walking away from something I dearly love, and you know what....

I'm at complete peace with that.

Because my attempt to keep holding on is disobedience.

In wrestling this thing out He keeps reminding me that sometimes one person's honesty will help bring freedom to another brother or sister in Christ.

I pray that happens.

Goodness knows, my holding on has not brought freedom. And it was for freedom Christ set us free. We aren't to be slaves to anything.(see Gal. 5:1) ANYTHING. Even good things.

I am clinging to Proverbs 1:33 "whoever listens to me will dwell secure and will be at ease, without dread of disaster."

Tonight, I can be secure knowing I have heard God's direction for me. I am choosing to believe (although I'm praying help my unbelief!) that He will keep me from "disaster", in this case the fear of the unknown.

I'm so thankful He doesn't give up on us. That He gives another chance. His mercy is new each morning. Thank you Jesus.


(the song is "Holding Back the Years" Simply Red just looked it up cause it was buggin' me!)