Saturday, January 29, 2011

It's all good.

Every last thing on my calender. Each and every commitment. All are important to me. All have an impact on my life, and the life of my family.

Recently, God has had me looking at my schedule. Each and every thing I am involved in has been evaluated. Questions like, "Why do I do this? Does this line up with the calling God has on my life? Does my involvement in this bring stress to my family?"

Not the easiest thing to be doing.

I was reading through some of Joanne's older posts recently. She was in this same sort of place and she referenced Thanksgiving. All your favorites are crowded on one plate. You know you CAN eat every last bite, but doing that is not the best thing for you.

So, for over a month now this is what has been on my heart. Talking to God and seeking direction. Boy has He given me big old nuggets to chew on. This morning, in Oswald Chambers this is what God gave me:

"Have I been persecuting Jesus by a zealous determination to serve Him in my own way?"

Ouch.

"If I feel I have done my duty and yet have hurt Him in doing it, I may be sure it was not my duty, because it has not fostered the meek and quiet spirit, but the spirit of self-satisfaction. We imagine that whatever is unpleasant is our duty! Is that anything like the spirit of our Lord, 'I delight to do Thy will, O my God.' "

Wednesday night, I shared with my middle school girls that we do not have to do EVERY activity. (And that included church activities.) God is not impressed with how much we do.

When God prompted me to take this evaluation time, I knew it was for a reason. This morning, as I read Chambers I knew the reason. He was reminding me that He wanted me to DELIGHT in doing His will.

His will for my life, not MY will.

Pretty simple isn't it.

I'm quite sure there is another post coming. Maybe it won't be quite as scattered and raw. This is just my heart tonight. Just want to simply do what God wants me to do and nothing else.

I want to say "I delight to do Thy will, O my God." and truly be doing His will.

2 comments:

Leah @ Point Ministries said...

I so understand. I went through a time of personal evaluation and reflection a couple of years ago. It is painful, yet healing. That was when God directed me to step down as the women's ministry director at our church. It hurt to do so, but oh, the freedom that has come.

Hope you have time to run by Lifeway Saturday. Would love to see you!!

Leah

Leah

HisTreasuredPossession said...

this post is such a wonderful reminder to me too. Being in a new place, I've been anxious to "FILL UP" my time so that I feel like I belong. I'm moving slowly, but that Desire rears it's head. In a way, have a baby has forced me to slow down because he needs naps, goes to be early, etc.

Thank you for sharing your heart. He is FOR us!!
love you,
rachel