Thursday, January 10, 2008

A look back, and a step forward

Recently I was reading through my journal from last year. I found a spot where I said, "I just want it to be this time next year. I want to be able to look back and say, 'so far, the Lord has helped us.' 1 Sam 7:12. I want to point to 2007 and say that was an Ebenezer year for me." What I didn't know when I wrote that was just how fast that year would fly by. I had no idea what God would do and the work that He would begin in my heart.

It really was a year of remembrance. God took me on this journey to remind me of how He had provided and cared for me my entire life. It was sort of like a walk down memory lane as I traced His hands in my life. He reminded me of all the good times and the times where I was disobedient to Him. It's remembering those times that I'm most amazed. He still protected me. Even the discipline that came as a result of the disobedience was done in love and I never felt unprotected. It was a powerful time that took me closer to the Father than I've ever felt.

One of the things that God had me do last year was to journal my thoughts on worship/worship leading and just what that means to me. So last summer I spent several afternoons sitting by the pool with my laptop and Bible, journaling my thoughts. I saved it and walked away from this "project", feeling good about what I wrote, but unsure of why He had me do it.

Then earlier this week, He brought that project back to my mind. I felt like maybe I should post some of those entries here. God confirmed that through a couple of conversations this week. (Conversations with people who have no idea I had done this because, well no one knows I wrote anything about worship.) And then there was a funny little Youtube video that touched on part of what I journaled... you see the theme here? God was saying, "YES I impressed that on your heart..DO IT!"

So over the next couple of days, I'm going to share a little of what I wrote. I ask that if you read it, please leave a comment. Positive, constructive...even if you totally think it stinks! I can take it! :)

This is a big step forward for me, and I can't think of a better group of people to take it with.

See you Friday!


Fran said...

You go girl!! God is just beautiful through you and I'm anxiously awaiting!!


BethAnne said...

Isnt it funny how God uses other people to reinforce what He is saying to us? The same thing happened to me last week. There is something (I am not ready to say what YET) that I felt Him leading me to do, but wasnt sure it was His voice or my own. Then last week (three times to be exact) other people said the same thing to me........coincidence? I think not!

Kemi said...

I will be looking forward it and I bet it will be good because anything the Lord does through us comes out looking beautiful to those you need to hear and watch it.

Carol said...

Can't wait to read them!

Angela @ Refresh My Soul Blog said...

Cool, Steph-I am looking forward to reading it!
Love ya!

Earen said...

I look forward to reading them. God does the most amazing things when we step out of our comfort zone to follow His heart. It will be great!

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and that the Lord will speak to us through you. I love it when He does that!


Heather C said...

Can't wait to read it! I love your honesty... it's so refreshing, Steph!